My Story
THE SHORT VERSION​​
I’m a PhD who reached the end of the line of studying, reasoning and thinking, discovering through self-inquiry—the only thing to ever allow me to see what is true—that it came from a deep distrust of my own goodness and therefore my own perspective.
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THE LONG VERSION​​
​From the time I was young, I was hungry to know what the most learned and wisest people knew because I thought it would allow me to feel safe in the world, although I didn't really know that at the time. Nor did I know that that is a feature of the human mind and that we all experience life this way until we learn to how our minds really function.
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To solve the mystery of life, I put my mind through its paces. I read, I studied, I acquired information and developed my ability to think critically (logically, analytically). I pursued academia because I assumed it had the answers I was looking for.
When the dust settled, I had four university degrees including a Ph.D. on the nature of mind, consciousness, and thought. I wanted to know if we have innate human intelligence and what can be known by humans directly (i.e. without being accumulated secondhand through external knowledge).​​
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I also spent ten years in psychotherapy from my mid-twenties to my mid-thirties trying to help me with through some traumatic events. I wanted to see if I could deeply understand and therefore help myself, mirroring my personal life with my professional life. I was leaving no stone unturned in my search for understanding human nature and how to genuinely thrive in life.
I didn’t realize that there was another option other than thinking and analyzing, that we can actually be present—exist—in the absence of thought but also that intelligence could come from another source. This makes sense because a default core belief of our collective humanity is that thinking is our best bet, our highest hope, for both solving the world’s problems and our own.​
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What I didn't know I was searching for was a higher source of intelligence than that of the intellect. In fact, it is the only true intelligence. Information from the mind is knowledge but it isn't intelligence. ​It was this transcendence of the mind that led me not only to answers and relief from suffering but to the awareness of who I actually am in the absence of all my accumulated beliefs.
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Discovering The Work of Byron Katie (a form of self-inquiry, which sages through history have taught as a way to directly experience life) finally let me see the source of all of my confusion, depression, and anxiety. It was inside me, as the beliefs I was holding. Cause and effect (the definition of "karma").​
​In the end, I discovered that the answers we are seeking are only to be found within us, as an experience, not as conceptual understanding. I discovered that the thinking mind is extremely limited in its ability to solve our problems. We need to go to another source, and we all have access to it.
I am both the source of my question -- the one asking -- and the one answering, and, it became clear to me that we are each the only one who can do that for ourselves. ​This is the missing link for people that changes everything.​
MY STORY AS YOUR STORY​
From a young age, we adopt beliefs—we just conclude things— as a way to make sense of the world. And those thoughts cast ourselves in a negative light and make us feel unsafe to be in the world. It's the mind doing its best to protect us but it wreaks havoc on our lives until we meet these thoughts and undo them.
For example, my dad once told me, “You don’t know what you’re talking about,” when I was very young and I had excitedly shared my idea with him, and my mom once told me, “You’re lazy,” when I didn't want to unload the dishwasher, and that was enough. I believed onto those situations and voila, I became Kathryn, the One who is Lazy and Doesn't Know What She is Talking About.
So I (my mind) have looked for proof of this ever since. I thought when I was procrastinating or feeling scared to take on jobs with a high level of responsibility it was because I was lazy and also because I didn’t think I knew what I was talking about. I suffered severe Imposter Syndrome. But neither of these things have ever been true.
I have been finding my way into trusting myself and what the experience is like to back myself and approve of myself unconditionally.
​It is my dearest desire now to share this work with the world. We are so blessed that Byron Katie had the awakening experience she did so that this simple-but-profound tool that anyone can use was born.
I was certified by Katie personally in January 2015 after a rigorous curriculum over two years. My awareness has continued to unfold since then, as I use life's challenges to continue to take me deeper into the mysteries of the Universe. ​I am enormously grateful to Katie for sharing this tool and her world with us so that I know of a different way of being on this earth.
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